Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Can anybody find me, somebody to love.....
I have a confession. I have a random crush. A guy I met a few times as a work connection. He's smart, nice, quotes random facts, and looks like a librarian. check, check, check - everything I go for. And if I am totally honest, it's kinda fun to giggle about liking someone, like Junior High revisited. Today, the little fantasy happiness I had constructed in my head, was assaulted, and destroyed. It's a good thing. Sustained delusion are not good for the psyche....... But it's also kinda sad. Rejection no matter how imagined manages to still smart. (yes, I am totally aware that you can't actually be rejected by someone who has no idea that you giggle and blush when you think about him in your head) I read in a book somewhere that "rejection always leads to something better". Might be true - it's yet to be confirmed. But the author failed to mentioned that the path to better isn't necessarily always free of rocks or debris. I never realized my self-identity was so sensitive to rejection. Not really sure if it's just me, or if everybody else needs the same mental safety padding. Reminds me of the Golden Chisel of Opportunity conversation that was had 4 years back (wow! years! already!) and the cycle continues.....
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Nobody likes having their lovability (yes, I made up a word) called into question.
I hear that rejection is character building, but I generally hate hearing that anything is "character building" because it means that things don't go the way you want. Still, life goes that way some of the time.
In summation, sometimes life doesn't go the way you planned, but that doesn't mean that you aren't a good enough person that you don't deserve having things go exactly how you want them to. :)
Yeah... you can sugarcoat it however you'd like, and throw in all sorts of personal development benefits and other gibberish... but at the end of the day rejection sucks. I'm really sorry you're going through this Mir. The next conquest will come along... but the downturns just need to be tackled and overcome. At least we're not 14 anymore, where this sort of thing signals the end of the world. One of the benefits of experience is knowing for yourself that this sort of thing has happened before... and that better times will come around again.
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